Two Months Old

Last Friday Miss Madalyn turned two months old. I can hardly believe how fast the time has gone by! To celebrate her birthday she unfortunately had to get her shots.... three shots and one oral vaccine for Roto virus. It nearly broke my heart when they stuck her... she screamed! Poor baby. She was pretty good for a few hours afterwards but by 6 at night I couldnt even put her down. She was so miserable... all she wanted was for Mommy to hold her, which I gladly did. At the doctor she was 12 pounds, 4 ounces and 22 inches long. She is right where she should be and everyone there absolutely loved her. She seemed to enjoy laying on the table and having everyone come in and talk to her... she "talked" more at the doctors than I have ever heard her. I think she is going to like being the center of attention.



Yesterday was my first day back at work, which wasnt too bad. I had requested to be assigned to a station while I am breastfeeding, but true to my department's stand on not being helpful at all for females, I am stuck on staffing. Which makes continuing to breastfeed more of a challenge then intially anticipated, but it makes me even more determined to make it work. Basically every morning at 7 am I call to see where I need to be by 8 am. Once there I have to describe to a different crew about breastfeeding and my need to pump and then I need to find a place to pump. Yesterday I was at a slow station so it wasnt much of a challenge, but my pumping was done in the womens bathroom at the station, which I cringe to think of how unsanitary that is but it was that or nothing. Needless to say, I am not happy about my work's lack of caring about breastfeeding but unfortunately I need to work to pay the bills.



It wasnt too hard for me to leave Madalyn, mostly because I was able to leave her sleeping in bed next to her Daddy. I am so greatful that we can work our schedules around each others so we can avoid daycare. I feel so much more comfortable with him watching her. They had a good day yesterday, or from what Shawn told me they did. I dont know if he would have told me if she cried all day because that would make it harder for me to go to work! But he does a great job of entertaining her so I am sure they had lots of fun.





Today while playing on her playmat the TV caught Madalyn's attention. Every time a female came on (I was watching CNN) she would turn towards the TV and coo. So this afternoon I went to Toys R Us and bought her a baby Einsteins DVD of Baby Bach to play for her... so she can learn about colors and music instead of all the horrible things going on in the world.

Tonight when it was time for Maddie to go to bed she was too overtired to be able to unwind and fall asleep. Every time we would lay her in the crib she would start crying hysterically. So finally I took her in to bed and layed down with her, and she immediately stopped crying and snuggled in to me. Being a mother is so wonderful. Moments like those absolutely make me melt. The fact that I have gone from someone who used to constantly be going somewhere and doing something to now thinking the most amazing thing in the world is lying next to my daughter while she sleeps shows me how much that I have grown up. And how blessed that I am to have such an amazing husband and a healthy happy daughter.